Friday, July 29, 2011

Answers; Snarky and Serious

Over the last four weeks, since we've gone public with our adoption plans, I've had the same conversation over and over. Someone finds out we've decided to adopt another child and the grilling ensues. Mind you, these are not friends. Friends are allowed to say whatever and ask whatever and I can answer them in whatever way I choose. And they may say something that I perceive as less than sensitive, but that's part of friendship. If you are a friend and you've said one of these things, I'm not talking to you. At least not in that snarky tone I use. No, these are people at the grocery store or the park or the neighborhood picnic that don't know the me behind the mask I put on around town.  They may have just met me. But boy, do they have an opinion. And here's the funny thing: SO DO I. And, as this is my blog, I'm going to share it.

In short:
Why? Because.
Four children isn't enough for you? No.
Wow, that name is something else. Are you going to keep it? Yes.
Better you than me! I agree.
You must be crazy. Probably
She sure is lucky. (crickets)
You are amazing. Nope.

To expand on the subject:
Why not? To whom much is given, much is required. I have a roof over my head and food on my table and I carry a little extra padding around my middle. I'm pretty sure that means much has been given me. I should probably share some of it. This is but a drop in the bucket. Besides, for this child I have prayed and petitioned my Father. My criteria was steep and very specific. I have been watching for her for more than four years. Why? For crying out loud, do YOU say no when someone gives you the gift you've been asking for?

Four children isn't enough for you?
Have I mentioned that I went into marriage wanting a dozen children? We even joked about a bakers dozen. The fact that I would prefer to never give birth again doesn't negate that I love being surrounded by my children. Less when they are hungry and I'm trying to cook, but I'm working on that. But the real question you should be asking is whether I think that zero parents is enough for my little Iris. And that answer is definitively NO. And make no mistake, she is MY little Iris and you are insulting me when you suggest she is not. I knew it from the moment I first saw her. How would you like for YOUR children to be on the other side of the planet from you, in a "care center," a face in the masses?

Wow. That name. Are you planning to keep it?
Are you suggesting that I should not? Her name is as lovely as she is and when I found out what "Iris" is short for, it gave me goosebumps. It hasn't even been four months since I stood in the city of her name and told my husband we needed another child named after that place. Yes, it is in Ethiopian, but it is still thick with meaning. In a time and place when people name their children Strawberry and Meconium, I would expect a little understanding.

Better you than me!
Yes, thank God, He has blessed me tremendously. Thank you, I will continue to receive those blessings. That you do not desire these blessings confuses me, but I'm glad you aren't coveting mine.

You must be crazy.
Aren't we all? But if it is crazy to obey my Father, count me insane. I think it's crazy to adopt dogs and spend more than college tuition to board them when I travel, but I can respect that someone on this earth is called to do it. Respect my insanity, will you?

She sure is lucky.
I don't know about that. I can be a pretty crummy mother some days. Today for instance. And yesterday and the day before. I'm not perfect. My husband isn't perfect. And I suspect that little Iris would prefer to live with her own parents. God chose ME, little old me, to raise up another daughter. Who's lucky? A little girl whose daddy died? I don't think so.

You are amazing.
Nope. As much as I'd like to believe you, I'm going to have to keep arguing this one. God is amazing and I am His. Any glory you perceive to be mine, comes from Him. And really, none of this statement has a thing to do with whether or not I adopt. God placed a desire in my heart to adopt "lots" of kids. So far I have one. And sadly, I have to confess that I'm a selfish adopter. When we adopted the first time, we wanted a baby. As I couldn't seem to carry a baby to term last millennium, adoption seemed like the fastest route. And frankly that worked out for us. I had more baby than I could handle for a lot of years. Now? I want that baby to have a sibling with similar coloring. I want my daughter to have a sister. I want a child that will fill a gap we have in our family. Will this be the last one? Who knows? I don't feel done. But I might. One thing at a time. But it all comes down to a simple truth: I desire to adopt. I am only fulfilling a deep seated desire. Does this sound like an amazing person to you? I didn't think so. It sounds like just about any red blooded American. We strive to fulfill our desires. That makes us ordinary.

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Friday, July 01, 2011

annoyances, small and large

1) If my husband EVER accompanies me to the grocery store wearing a shirt that says, "Will sell wife for Beer":
     a) he will not be accompanying me home, and,
     b) he and his shirt can go live with his mother.
2) the public health department, together with Kansas seat belt laws, needs to make up their minds. As it is cruel and unusual punishment for parents and children alike to put children back into car seats after they have legally graduated out of them, it is close to evil to yearly change the rules about vaccinations so that a child, who has been promised "no more for five years," still has to be stabbed EVERY year because some moron somewhere randomly decided that if they were older than four when receiving the last two dTaP shots they are OK unless the last two shots were given less than six months apart even though in order to get into school, the last two shots were to be given one month apart...and this was perfectly acceptable last month. I mean seriously?

3) re:2) this shot is due to the newly returned whooping cough epidemic which doesn't seem to care if children have been vaccinated or not as I personally know children who have and have not been vaccinated and got it anyway.

4) re:3) three of my children have had whooping cough. Guess which ones are "behind" on their whooping cough vaccine, even though they have been completely vaccinated (as of 2010, before the dang rule changed)?

5) re:4) Guess which children will have to be vaccinated against whooping cough, even though they have had it, in order for us to adopt a child from a developing country?

6) what is UP with the new Polio regulations? The vaccination cards clearly read that the kids' vaccines are good for two more years and yet the PA has declared them "not up to date," but didn't explain such a line to the mother. My guess is that she doesn't know, either, but the chart said it so it must be right.

7) insurance that covers NOTHING.

8) cancer striking again. (not in my home, thank God)

9) mortgages and crappy markets

10) microbiology degrees which hold no clout when held up against the vaccine chart. HELLO! Vaccines give you a little bit of the disease in order for you to not get the whole thing. The whole point of vaccines is that you can't get the disease twice. If you've had it, you don't need to be vaccinated against it. Do they teach public health nurses nothing in school? (My mother is a nurse, don't even try to attack me for not understanding. I'm not attacking all nurses....just the ignorant ones.) THUS, my FOUR children who have had chicken pox do NOT need the vaccine. Nor do they need the dTaP, Td, people, Td. I let you do it to my kids once, but so help me, not again. This is stupidity at it's best. "Well, they MAY have had whooping cough" (no mam, they HAVE had whooping cough, call the doctor) "regardless, that might not provide sufficient immunity. they need the shot" (are you flipping kidding me?) Oh, and this took place in JoCo, not here. Locals need not get their panties in a bunch in defense of their friends.

11) That shirt deserves a second mention, too. Imbecile. I'm pretty sure I didn't recognize the woman. If your husband has this shirt, my apologies. But may I suggest rereading and considering 1)? Have a little self respect. There's humor and then there's humor. Humor that is used to degrade a person you are supposed to love is not humor, it is hurtful. 

12) CANCER. Oh. My. Loving Father. WHY?!